A favorite place we like to frequent is Sundance with its 3 different restaurants. It’s fun to go up to the mountains together and spend some quality time for adventurous date nights. This Friday night we went to La Jolla. Melissa really opened up to me about older relationships she’s had and what caused those ones to not work out. We made love where she told me I was sexy and she completely and openly gave herself to me. She is so sexy! She has the perfect body. On top of the outer beauty is her inner. 

Christmas

Tuesday, Christmas Eve. Went on a run with Don. We’re training to do a marathon together in about a month from now. I’ve gotta get my speed, endurance and distance back up. I’ve gotten 40 miles in this week. I met some of Melissa’s family. I went to Leah (Melissa’s youngest sister and with whom she lives) and Cade’s house for dinner. There, I met Asher and Tatiana, parents Lynn and Rachel, sister Emily, sister Leah with their kids Audrey, Eleanor (Ellie), Anderson (Andy) and Jackson. Asher and Tats came together over to Leah’s. 

Christmas Day. It was a weird sensation to wake up all on my own on this holiday. But, I got up and went for a short 5k run and then went to my mom and dad’s to spend a few hours with them. Jake was with Seth’s family, Brad with Calvin’s, Ethan and Chani had their family time and Ava and Eli are with Nichole this year as per the divorce decree. I made French toast, ham steak, bacon, scrambled eggs and grape juice. Dad preferred the French toast in lieu of the traditional. About 2:00 I started to head back over to Melissa’s place. We opened up our gifts for each other. We were the only ones in the house cuz the rest of her family had gone up to her parent’s house for dinner. Melissa got me a gray beanie, a charcoal long sleeve shirt, a flannel shirt, a $100 Scheels gift card, a puzzle and some Lubriderm lotion. A few weeks ago when I arrived at her house, I asked for some lotion cuz I had forgotten mine. She was cute and got me some more. She got me clothes cuz I had told her before I needed to update my stuff. She is so thoughtful and cute.  We went up to her parent’s house for dinner and to see the lights at Temple Square together. The lights were pretty minimal due to the construction upgrades. Still pretty though and fun to walk around and get to visit her family. Tatiana and Asher both came. I was actually able to sit with the two of them for a minute and get to talk with them. 

Thursday, the day after Christmas, I went to work. I was able to meet up at lunchtime with Ethan and Chani and Mercedes, bales and Calvin, Jake and Seth at R&R BBQ. We went to dinner again with Melissa’s siblings and family to celebrate her dad’s birthday at the Old Spaghetti Factory in Trolley Square. This time she had nieces and nephews there. Tatiana came but Asher had to work and was unable to come. I really feel welcome with Melissa’s family. I hope to be a part of Melissa’s family some day. She makes me so happy 

Friday, Melissa and I had date night and we went to La Jolla Gardens in Provo. The more she opens up to me the more I am attracted to all of who she is. She’s had some trashy guys who appeared to be good ones up front. Porn addictions, narcissism. She was married to 2 LDS guys who up front seemed great. But, she tells me she had doubts right up front with both of them. With Roman, he was good to her in public but not so much in private and had porn addictions. He cheated on Melissa with her best friend and visiting teacher Melinda with whom he was kissing in front of Asher and Tatiana within weeks of separating. The next guy, Trent, she dated for 1.5 years and she thought they were gonna get married. He was also addicted to porn and soon after breaking up he was dating another girl to whom he married. She then dated Dan who was the owner of TriUtah. But, he was not in shape. So, Dan just “kind of grew on her” although not really attracted to him. Kurt was an athlete but gave up on himself and got out of shape. It was hard for Melissa cuz Kurt didn’t see any value of taking care of himself and gained a lot of weight and told her to accept him for who he was. But he wanted to out on a show that all was good from the outside perspective at the same time not treating her well. They dated for 3.5 years before getting married and only were married for not even a full year. Kurt wanted Melissa to take care of his children and a narcissist. Then, when she had her mental break, he didn’t support her. I hope Melissa will be able to open up herself fully and unconditionally with me. I hope I can feel that I’m much better then those trashy men. The other day when we were at La Jolla, I told her she was a “good catch”. She responded by saying with a grin and smile that “she caught me first. I liked you first on Hinge”. 

Saturday, Melissa and I got together with Ava and Cassie, Brad and Calvin and Eli to go see Nosferatu. That was a dark movie. Eli had to sit out for a little bit so I went to go sit with him out in the hall. Melissa had gotten up late in the movie for a bathroom break and when she returned she informed me Eli was out in the hall. I hadn’t realized he was outside. Probably not the best choice for a “family” show

 

We went to the Lehi HS football field and played for a little over an hour and then went to the legacy center to get a workout in. He’s a stud!

Went to dinner with Melissa’s parents

I went to dinner with Melissa’s parents last Saturday, the 16th. We went to Brio Italian restaurant up in City Creek mall in salt lake. Lynn invited us to come eat with them. I was so excited to be invited by Melissa to come meet someone in her family. It felt good to be included and invited. I’m excited to get to know her family. We got to know each other a little bit. Lynn is a judge getting close to retirement. Rachel, Melissa’s mom, is a sweetheart. Melissa and I both got the salmon meal while her parents shared a lasagna. I found out they moved 26 times while Melissa was growing up due to her dad being in the military. 

 

It feels that everyday Melissa is more and more letting me into her life and softening. The way she looks at me and her mannerisms are so tender. She will tickle my hand with her perfectly manicured fingernails, she’ll give me a cute smile and grin as we drive in the car, she tells me stories, lets me know what’s going on with her kids, how she gently and tenderly will rest her head against mine and wants to hold my hand as she reaches for me to hold hers constantly. She is so special. She has healed my brokenness. And, although I know she won’t tell me verbally yet that she loves me, I can tell by her mannerisms and attitude and the way she interacts with me that she does.  For someone like her who has been abused twice by previous relationships, she guards herself and is hesitant to express herself verbally her true feelings. She doesn’t want to be taken advantage of again. She doesn’t have a backup plan if things were to go awry which would cause her anxiety. She has to protect her heart. She tells me she just needs time. Well, I have the rest of my life with her to continue to try to win her love, her affection and to feel safe and secure with. I love her and hope to continue to win her love.  

In this picture above, we went to Log Haven up Millcreek canyon. I had tried a few previous unsuccessful times to get into this place so it was neat to spend a few moments where I could glance across the table at perfection and to feel of the most beautiful soul. Melissa just radiates goodness and love

 

Melissa Elaine Creswell Garcia. I am so grateful that I have the chance to date this beautiful, loving, and wonderful person. I am humbled to be in her presence. I wish I could spend all of my time with her. I never get sick of being with her. Lately, Our normal routine is to hit different restaurants through the week by getting together pretty much each day for dinner and to just talk with each other. These have been special moments that I cherish every day. I will be at work and then I constantly find myself so ecstatic to get together with her for dinner , almost every day. The nicer and fancier restaurants we will visit on the weekends Friday. We have been recently to the prohibition, the tree room up in Sundance, the foundry grill also in Sundance just to name a few. Being in her presence is intoxicating. A couple weekends ago when we went  to the foundry, I just enjoyed walking with her along the lit path from the restaurant to the parking lot and being able to hold her hand, feel her next to me and just look at the light sparkle off her complexion while the lights from the pathway reflect on her . I am constantly in awe of how beautiful she is. I can sit at a restaurant and talk with her for hours and just enjoy being in her presence. Two nights ago, we went to the prohibition restaurant. Melissa typically wears form fitting pants and turtleneck type shirts and sweaters, which augment her perfectly shaped legs and breasts. She is so sexy. I find it hard to contain myself. I also love her hair. She will sometimes have it down, other times she will have it up in a bun, and other times she will have the sexy side braid that I just adore. Every time I am with her now, I tell her that I love her, because I do. I want to share all that I am and have with her. As I was making the dreaded drive back to het house to drop her off after an amazing evening, I embraced her and told her that I loved her as we typically do. As she started to walk back to the door is when I told her that I loved her this time. I am pretty sure she said I love you too while she was walking away to her door.  I think that is what she said. That is at least what I heard. I think she said it out of a natural reaction. Other than that one time, she has not told me she loves me yet. I do wonder why she will not say it back because all of her mannerisms reflect love for me. I do wonder what the hesitation is to saying that to me. I do feel I want to ask her why she doesn’t tell me that or if she does love me. I just want to hear verbal affirmation of her love for me.  She does show her love to me in other ways which I feel. She gets dressed up for me. She has given more of her time for me. For example, yesterday, she came out earlier on Saturday with me with Brad and Calvin and Eli and Van and Ava for topgolf  And the movies. We went to see the movie venom last night but for a couple hours before the movie we played at Topgolf. I forgot to take any pictures. It seems lately. I just want to be in the moment and forget to take pictures. 

 I need to remember the little things and how the little things mean the most. I had a beautiful moment tonight with Melissa and Eli and Ava. I asked Ava and Eli to come with me and Melissa to the movie to which they agreed. We decided to go have dinner and a movie tonight in which we were going to watch a scary movie. But before going to the scary movie, we had a little bit of time to kill. I asked any of them if they wanted to stop somewhere for dinner to which Melissa, Eli and Ava all said they were OK. Melissa said she was just going to have popcorn at the movie. Eli said he was full from eating panda express earlier in the day. And Ava said she was fine., But I still wanted to get something to eat  And so we got off the freeway from Melissa’s house and stopped in at Culver’s. We ordered a little bit of food. Ava got her Dr Pepper and Fries. Eli got a root beer float. I got a chicken sandwich and fries to which Melissa said she would eat the fries. I happily would share a meal with her. As we sat down at the table, we start eating. Melissa has beautiful hair tonight when I picked her up from the house, I noticed her wearing her hair in the side braid that she does. I love that look because it is so cute on her so, a little later as we’re sitting at the table, I look across the table at her again and complement her on her hair. I say to her, you are so pretty with that side braid. The memorable part of this interaction is that she starts looking back at me with the cutest smile and happiest grin and I ask her why she is smiling or laughing because the grin looks almost more like a laugh . She’s literally glowing back at me and she looks so beautiful. Then she tells me with the most innocent grin, I wore my hair like this for you! My heart melted. This is the pure love from her that I feel and fall in love with. Her affection for me is pure

 I had to sadly drive Melissa back home after the movie in lieu of bringing her home with me. That return drive home to drop her off is a dreaded moment. I get sad having to drop her off. I yearn to be with her. After dropping her off, I’m driving home with Eli and Ava. Well, typically they’re either usually quiet or squabbling like typical siblings do. But, tonight for almost the entire 25-minute drive to the townhome from Melissa’s home they had the windows down and just singing to music and keeping their heads out the windows and enjoying each other. It was bliss to my ears to hear them genuinely enjoy being with each other

Life lately

 I have been dating the most special person, Melissa, now, for 4 months. A life lesson of mine is to look up and open up to experiences. Life is so much more about just buying things and objects. Have life experiences. Yes, sometimes you need money to have desired experiences. But, I know I am financially short on money right now, but I don’t want that to dictate or deter having experiences with people and especially with someone I care deeply about. We have been enjoying doing things together almost daily. For the most part, we just go to dinner almost each night and spend a couple hours together right now. I love being with her. I ache to be with her. She is constantly on my mind and I would spend 100% of my time with her if I could. So. We have been dating for 4 months now. One thing that has been tough on me is that she still hasn’t told me she loves me. I tell her frequently. I’d tell her everyday and every time with her if she’d say it to me. I know she has been hurt by her previous marriages to Kurt snd Roman. And, she has a hard time expressing herself verbally. It’s as if she wants to stay closed to not get hurt again. But, to express love to another, it doesn’t always need to be verbalized. In this case she expresses herself with her gestures and the way she spends time with me. I can feel she cares about me, and possibly does love me even though it’s not verbally expressed. This past Sunday she broke protocol and came to see me. Up until now, she had not been open to seeing me on a Sunday. But, I was in France for the previous 9 days. The day before returning home, she excitedly informed me that she was gonna come over. I was so excited. We had a wonderful dinner together where I made her chicken fettuccine Alfredo with a fruit salad and French bread. I love doing things for her as a way to show I care, appreciate and love her. After dinner, we made passionate love where we just laid together naked for a long time and she smiled at me and looked into my eyes so tenderly. I felt so connected with her and souls connecting. She has the most beautiful and radiating smile. Her hair is so shiny and beautiful. I love when she does her side bride cuz it looks so cute on her. I love her toned legs, her tight ass, her strong and sexy frame, her big perfectly shaped tits that love to be played with and caressed, her amazing smile, the way she smells is so refreshing, the way she is so feminine and radiating and beautiful. I can literally stare at her and gaze upon her being mesmerized by her pure goodness and beauty and warmth and preciousness that she is. My heart and soul yearns to be with her. Even the way her side braided hair and free flowing hair rests upon her shoulders, the way she wears her clothes is just so amazingly sexy. She checks all the boxes for me.  Yesterday, when we were driving over to Roxberry to get an açaí bowl, she made the comment that she’s a mess to me. She’s having a hard time because she hates her job and is such a conundrum right now because she needs the job but hates the company she’s with and not a good fit with the coworkers. Most others there are young and she says they’re all like teenagers. She mentioned how her boss was praising one her coworkers and telling her how awesome she was doing. Melissa has not had any positive encouragement from the boss at all. Melissa notes how just a little encouragement would go a long ways. Rather, it’s just always demanding more of her and critiquing. I like to reassure her of just how amazing and awesome she is. Melissa needs some positive experiences in her life and for things to go her way. Hopefully, I can help her see the positives in her life. I really want to be a strong support and positive influence for her to have amazing life experiences together. Cuz like I said at the beginning of this, life is so much more meaningful with wonderful experiences rather than just focusing on material possessions. 

I met mom and dad Creswell

 Today was special. Unexpectedly, I met Melissa’s parents, Rachel and Lynn. I say unexpectedly because I drove over to a Melissa’s with the intention of just dropping off a departing gift I got for her cuz she is heading off to California for a business trip. I got her some air pods be at she said she didn’t have any and I thought that would be good to have for the trip. When I drove up, they were just pulling out of their car and I thought to myself, “oh boy, here we go. Time to meet the parents!” They are such great people. I could tell just genuinely good. I could see where Melissa gets it from. Lynn told me about Melissa and how she lost her husband, job and her MBA program opportunity all in the same week. He also mentioned how of all his children that she was the most solid of the group. He also told me how he’s felt she’s come alive since meeting and knowing me. That made me feel good. He told me about how he likes to swim and run. Melissa has told me that she got her love for running from her dad. He actually did a 50-mile bike ride with the mayor of salt lake. I asked him that he needs to do tríathlon since he’s already running and swimming. The biggest impression I got from Lynn is that he’s happy Melissa is with a good man, which is what he told me. I told him that it has gone both ways. She is a great and wonderful woman and person. She makes me better!

Brineman

 

I’ve gone almost two years without doing a race. Never thought I’d be saying that. But, I felt I had to step back and give up. So, honestly, I just wanted and needed to see where I was. Overall time was 5:36. I just am happy to have gotten back out on a course again. Triathlon gives me a sense of accomplishment, which I feel I definitely need

Melissa continued 😁

Saturday was a beautiful evening with sweet Melissa. I have been wanting to have a dinner together at the townhome. We finally were able to do that. She was so pretty. She wore her blue dress and brown sandals. I picked this picture off her IG account because this is the exact dress she was wearing. This is her with her son, Asher, who I’m hoping to meet someday if Melissa will let me and I’m so lucky. She brought a bottle of wine over to share that she had in her room since last Christmas when it was given to her as a gift from either Tatiana or Asher and waiting for a moment to be able to use it. Melissa tells me she’s come a long ways in being able to date. She went a long time after Kurt that she was absolutely unable to. I hope I make her feel good and secure in herself. So, I made Swiss chicken over rice for her with Caesar salad and peanut clusters for dessert. The wine was perfect with the meal. She has a beautiful smile. After dinner, we went up to watch the movie Trap in South Jordan.

Friday, we went to DelMar and back home. She wanted to see the place with the new furniture. It was so great to have her in my arms and be with her

A couple days earlier, on Thursday, I got her 6 roses, picked her up and went to Aubergine for dinner. It was a great time where we talked. She wore a black shirt and she looked so beautiful with her black hair. 

On Tuesday, we went to one of her go-to places, Cubby’s.

Last weekend Melissa ended up going to Idaho for Labor Day weekend to spend time at the cabin with her family. 

Last week, we went on dates to Kneaders (Thursday) and Cafe Zupas (Wednesday) and Edna’s (Tuesday)

Logan for Jake’s evening

 Jake was scheduled to have an architectural display evening up at USU. All the students in the program displayed their homes they’ve been designing last year and use the software they’ve been learning. I’m jealous. I would love to have the time to learn new programs 

Jake returns from Hawaii

 

Jake and Seth returned from Hawaii after a fun and full summer there working. So, we got together and went to Strap Tank. Family means so much to me. They fill my soul and relieve loneliness and bring meaning 

This week

This week’s dates with Melissa was Tuesday we went to Cubby’s for dinner, Wednesday to Mo’Bettah’s, Friday was pickleball with Eli and Saturday we went to the Owl Bar and back to the house. I am really falling in love with Melissa. She is so beautiful both inside and out I am mesmerized by her and she is so intoxicating. I think about her nonstop. When we got back to the house after a fun night at the Owl Bar, she proceeded to go upstairs to the bedroom and went in and laid down on the bed. She was pretty tired. She was wearing her green sundress and was laying on her backside with her left leg crossed over her right. She was so sexy looking with those amazingly toned legs of hers and tight ass with perfectly shaped breasts that just scream for me to play with and playfully tease. I can just embrace, cuddle and fuck her forever. She is just so beautiful. I always want to be with her. It feels so amazing to have her tight pussy wrapped around my cock while embracing all of the beautiful woman that she is.

Jake returned home from Hawaii and headed back up to Logan to start his junior year. 

This week

 Melissa and I got together on Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. 

Friday, we were able to go to Outback Steakhouse and then she showed me where her first apartment was when first married to Roman and also her 2nd place which was a townhouse on 900 E. I then showed her where my parent’s house was and my apartment with Nichole, Rick and Elena. A trip down memory lane and then we headed back to the townhome. My heart is full with love for this Creswell girl. 

Yesterday was a beautiful night where we could be up Granite Flats campground. The site was beautiful with encompassing trees, the sound of the river flowing in the background and just Melissa’s companionship. Melissa was able to open up to me quite a bit this past week about her depression and anxiety. I’m grateful for all she’s able to do with me. This will be my biggest struggle. I could spend all my time with her, but she needs to have her own space and time for her own happiness and ability to cope with it. 

This week

 

School started this week. Eli started 7th and Ava 11th.