Date night

 Typically, I would not consider Tuesday a date night. But, it was nice to have a date again with my cute girl. We went to a restaurant that we had never been to before with Elena and Dave and part of the family. Earlier in the day during lunch I kept contemplating about Nichole. To say she is constantly on my mind is an understatement. I am consistently subconsciously and consciously thinking of her and our relationship. The thought came to my mind of how grateful I am that she has been able to endure 28 years of marriage to someone she’s not even attracted to.  I thanked her for not dumping me a long time ago.  I don’t know how she’s been able to do it.  I was comparing this to myself and if I had been taught as a heterosexual that I needed to be intimate with another man.  That would be impossible for me. I just would not be able to do it. Not because I think it is an evil practice, but just for the mere fact that I am not attracted to men.  Nichole has been incorrectly taught that she can only live a heterosexual lifestyle or be celibate.  Well, after 28 years of being intimate with a man, she’s had enough and just can’t stomach it anymore.  I have to have compassion in thinking of her.  So, now we’ll just both live a celibate lifestyle but at least have our best friends by our sides. The love we have for each other my be love without the extra benefits of physical romance. But, at least we’ll have friendship companionship.  I am amazed she’s been able to endure as long as she has. I hope she can continue to want to see me by her side!